Tuesday, April 27, 2010

Sam I Am...

I am a wife.
I am a mom...a step mom, an adoptive mom, a biological mom.
I am a daughter, a sister, a friend.
I am a member of the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints.
I am an adoption advocate.

I believe that their is a plan for all of us...we just have to live in a way to fulfill it.
I believe that deep down, all people are good...some just forget sometimes.
I believe that everyone is entitled to believe, think and feel how they want...just let me do the same.
I believe in happy endings.
I believe in organ donation.

I love my family.
I love the knowledge I have of eternal families.
I love laughter.
I love pretending I know what I am doing in life...
I love Diet Coke.

I fear failure.
I fear I am not a good mom.
I fear disappointing those I love.
I fear people getting to know the real me.
I fear losing faith, hope and my determination to get through these hard times.

I am afraid of birds, mice, and rabbits.
I am afraid of not living up to my full potential.
I am afraid of not fitting in.
I am afraid of letting loose and relaxing....I really need to work on that.
I am afraid of not being prepared for what lies ahead.

My family is going through some really dark and scary things right now. I need to remind myself to look past the now and focus on the future. Focus on all the possibilities the future holds. Forget about all the bad things that are happening now and know that things will only get better. Know without a shadow of a doubt that if I keep my faith and remember that I am a daughter of God, that we WILL be okay. I am an individual person that has struggles and is facing difficult times. I am me; I am not my struggles. The struggles, the difficult times, the fear--will not make me stop being who I am....I won't let them.

I am woman; hear me roar!!!


LostinPlaceKim said...

You go girl! And I'm always here if you need ANYTHING.

Anonymous said...

I hope you win the lawsuit! Good luck!