Friday, July 08, 2011

Friday Confessional...

I haven't done this in a long time...but I have something I have to get off my chest...


I Confess:

I recently ended an unhealthy relationship. It was pretty much one sided...almost emotionally abusive.

I Confess:

I felt good about it at first. I was strong and never looked back. I knew I had done the right thing for myself.

I Confess:

The other day, I was weak. I went back. And now I regret it. Just like last time, I was left feeling empty and everything that went bad in our relationship was my fault.

I Confess:

I plan on keeping up the affair. Not letting anyone else know I am still involved. Knowing the outcome isn't going to be good, but hoping the outcome is different; better, more loving...

I Confess:

I want to be strong. I want to be brave. But a girl has needs...and those needs can only be met by certain things....even if it is an abusive relationship.

Say hello to my abusive partner:
My bathroom scale.

I put it away months ago because I got tired of stepping on it every morning and letting three numbers affect my day the way they did. Then I got it out last week, and I've been going back for more and more..

I confess:

Maybe someday I will be strong enough to live without it. But for now, I will continue to pretend I don't care what it says. It can't hurt me more than it all ready has...

Go on and link up your know you want to....


Mamarazzi said...

GIIIIRL you had me hanging on every word. i was sitting here trying to think of how i could possibly comment and then the scale pops up...nicely done, nicely done indeed!

thanks for linking up!

Crystal Escobar said...

Oh my gosh, you are hilarious! I was totally thinking you were getting a divorce, or actually having an affair, haha. You tricked me! :)
I know just what you mean about the scale. I once had an obsession over it, but have come a long way since then. I think it's something most all women struggle with, and over time as you try to look more within you become less and less obsessed with it. I'm not saying I'm completely over it, but I have definitely made progress over the years.

Valerie said...

I was taken in too. :) Good luck with that relationship.

Kim said...

Good one. I knew you were being a nut, it was fun to try to guess what it was you were talking about. Sad thing? I immediately thought the bathroom scale but then dismissed it and went to other things... chocolate, clothes, you know, the FUN stuff. Very clever, you are :P