I haven't done this in a long time...but I have something I have to get off my chest...
I recently ended an unhealthy relationship. It was pretty much one sided...almost emotionally abusive.
I felt good about it at first. I was strong and never looked back. I knew I had done the right thing for myself.
The other day, I was weak. I went back. And now I regret it. Just like last time, I was left feeling empty and alone...like everything that went bad in our relationship was my fault.
I plan on keeping up the affair. Not letting anyone else know I am still involved. Knowing the outcome isn't going to be good, but hoping the outcome is different; better, more loving...
I want to be strong. I want to be brave. But a girl has needs...and those needs can only be met by certain things....even if it is an abusive relationship.
Say hello to my abusive partner:
My bathroom scale.
I put it away months ago because I got tired of stepping on it every morning and letting three numbers affect my day the way they did. Then I got it out last week, and I've been going back for more and more..
Maybe someday I will be strong enough to live without it. But for now, I will continue to pretend I don't care what it says. It can't hurt me more than it all ready has...
Go on and link up your confessions...you know you want to....