Sam I Am...

I am a wife.
I am a mom...a step mom, an adoptive mom, a biological mom.
I am a daughter, a sister, a friend.
I am a member of the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints.
I am an adoption advocate.

I believe that their is a plan for all of us...we just have to live in a way to fulfill it.
I believe that deep down, all people are good...some just forget sometimes.
I believe that everyone is entitled to believe, think and feel how they want...just let me do the same.
I believe in happy endings.
I believe in organ donation.

I love my family.
I love the knowledge I have of eternal families.
I love laughter.
I love pretending I know what I am doing in life...
I love Diet Coke.


I fear failure.
I fear I am not a good mom.
I fear disappointing those I love.
I fear people getting to know the real me.
I fear losing faith, hope and my determination to get through these hard times.


I am afraid of birds, mice, and rabbits.
I am afraid of not living up to my full potential.
I am afraid of not fitting in.
I am afraid of letting loose and relaxing....I really need to work on that.
I am afraid of not being prepared for what lies ahead.

My family is going through some really dark and scary things right now. I need to remind myself to look past the now and focus on the future. Focus on all the possibilities the future holds. Forget about all the bad things that are happening now and know that things will only get better. Know without a shadow of a doubt that if I keep my faith and remember that I am a daughter of God, that we WILL be okay. I am an individual person that has struggles and is facing difficult times. I am me; I am not my struggles. The struggles, the difficult times, the fear--will not make me stop being who I am....I won't let them.

I am woman; hear me roar!!!

YuMmY...

So what do we do at our house when the mommy has reached her stress level and is about to ExPLoDe??? We make CUTE cupcakes and eat them all up!!!

YuMmY!!

My own little cupcake!!

Making and decorating these cupcakes made me feel better. I released some stress and had fun doing it. Christian and Emma didn't mind the messed up ones and the Young Women got the good ones.

HaPpY AnNiVeRsArY!!!

Seven years ago today, Marcus and I were married by my grandpa in the Bountiful Temple. We have been through a lot together in the past seven years; it all hasn't been rainbows and butterflies. There have been some thunderstorms and pesky insects along the way. I am grateful for the man I married and all he does for our family. I am grateful for the family that we do have together. Marcus is a very patient man; I am no walk in the park to deal with.

So to my awesome hubby:
Thank you for all you do for me our and family. Thank you for putting up with me and my never ending lists of demands and projects and moodiness. Thank you for the past seven years....here's to eternity!!!! I love you!
Happy Anniversary!!