Tuesday, September 28, 2010

Out of Whack...

The month of September has kicked my butt. I have been crazy busy with no time to sit and catch my breath. Picture season has started in full force. I am more involved in the business now than I ever have been before. Young Women's requires my time, and with Christian being in school now, I am involved in the PTA. Add to all that all the running around for the kids between different school times, dance and soccer, trying to keep the house somewhat decent and time to unwind so I don't completely go insane, I am beat.

I am determined to find a way to make it all work. Unfortunatly I can't add any more hours in my day, I just need to find a way to balance my time better. With my working so much, my kids have not been the top of my priority list. Emma has been effected the most. Her whole life she has pretty much had all my attention all the time. Now that I haven't been able to give it to her, she is having attachment issues. Places she normally loves to go, (dance, preschool and nursery at church) she wants nothing to do with and freaks out if I try to leave her.

This week isn't as bad as the rest of the month so I am trying to use it to my advantage. I am making my kids a bigger priority and scheduling time for them, together and one on one. FYI: I went on a bike ride with Christian last night, and he kicked my butt. He totally schooled me!!
Emma can play Barbies and Little People like there is no tomorrow, and I have to admit, I am SoOoO sick of playing Little People with that little girl.

I am trying to get caught up on all my cleaning. I have finally realized that having a perfect house isn't worth. There were so many times I would tell the kids I couldn't play with them because I had to do the dishes or fold the laundry. My laundry room has exploded and my sink is now usually full. But we play and we play hard.

Trying to keep caught up on work stuff and Young Women's stuff is all about not procrastinating. I am the queen of procrastination.

There has to be a balance between work life, family life and "me" life. I just haven't found it yet. If anyone finds it, please share.

Oh! And the cherry on top, I just signed up to run the Ogden 1/2 marathon in May next year. Time to get training. Time that I don't have. I feel like I need something to work towards and a goal to accomplish. I all ready paid my money so I am committed.

I can do it all!!! Or maybe, it's the cold medicine doing all the talking and all I really want to do is hide in the basement!! :)